This is what your children want more than anything else in the world (If only you could know)

What I call
Embodied Mothering
Doesn't look perfect

It is alive

In all its mess

Mundanity

And unfathomable beauty

It is a journey into the depths

Beyond who you have ever known yourself to be

Into the embryonic brilliance

That will never stop propelling you

To care

So wildly

You are a mammal

Biologically wired to nurture, protect and defend

What is dearest to you

Your kin

Mother, this is yours to reclaim

For your dear ones

And also for yourself

The chance to have the mother you always dreamed of

To become her

I am not promising you

An escape from struggle

From painful feelings

From a messy house and other so called failures of proper regulation

Quite the opposite

What I propose is a vibrancy of living and loving

That will feel frightening

To all the parts of you who stayed safe

By staying small, in control and distracted

I call you to viscerally know your yeses and nos

And to be loyal to them

To know and love yourself in every state of feeling

To be IN YOUR BODY in the present moment

To have deep reserves of energy

For all life demands of you

I invite you into the deeply restorative sleep

Only accessible to the few of us

Who can embrace all of who we are

Without anxiety

This is the journey